so heres what happened today, i did my venue stuff and then i went to the fairy tale auction and i thought he would be there but he was not. so i went to the tera flare x aley cat, and i saw him. i walked up and sat next to him and i said to my sweet jarenko. that i missed him and how what he did back then was fucked up and me telling him i hope he aint a bad person underneath. i offered my friendship to him and he acepted. i was kinda suprised i expected a hatful rant. it appears my sweet jarenko has grown and matured. i then said stuff how he imrpoved me yata yata about how his hatred was great and that i hope he aint a bad person irl. and then i noticed somthing about jarenko. he seemed to space out quite a lot. he was not even talking to anyone. i then asked him about if he truly had bi polar to get a understanding. turns out he did and he says "oh its hard to maintain relationships and stuff like that" and he goes on how it makes him do things he knows his wrong but still does it
it made me think hmmmmmmm did jarenkos bi polar influence his hatred towards me, maybe he never wanted to hate me. it could be his bi polar that did that. i then asked him to what his named ment. it turns it means blessing in finnish. im like in my head wtf, theres no way. but i guess it means that. i then asked about his hoenstly. since i heard from one of his close friends jarenko has been a honest man, what i mean by that. he tends to say things from his heart rather then think it though. this is kinda a bad thing depending on how you see it, it means hes more likey to do/say stupid shit without thinking it though, he then said somthing about it costing him everything. he sounded in sorrow a bit. but i still got the vibe somthing dark is within him
i then parted ways and said to him dont do anything stupid.
i then watched from a distance and
i then observed from a distance to futhur understand jarenko.
he was standing in the distance far from teh crowd just hiding in a corner looking at the owner of amethyst mahile kulahahsadfhdsojfhdsjghdfjghfdjghfdjgh or somthing idk how to spell her last name. so im like hmmm wtf is he up to. he legit better not be a legit sick fuck underneth. then he looked at me and moved around in the party. i then think maybe hes just one of those players who are just lazy to switch lock on.
i get this weird vibe from him, he was much more talkative before, maybe it was the bi polar kicking in for him idk, it was fascinating. but i still got this uneasy vibe from him. like he was a sick fuck underneath. from my experience, its normally the silent ones who are the sick fucks. well at least my from experience.
as i kept watching i felt as tho i kept understanding him. well i legit hope he aint a real sick fuck. hehe
i then logged out and today a part of my soul smiled knowing the fact ive friended my sweet JARENKOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. i still hold onto his hatred for me for motivation, me and him being friends in game dont change the fact what he did was wrong.
but ooooooooooooooooooooh my god his hatred gave me so much FUCKING ENGERY TODAY.
today was a good day, legit was my soul smiled today. now that im friends with jarenko (in game) only the future can tell what tom fuckery he will do.
hek honestly him being my friend in game is just a bloody meaningless achievement woooooooooooooooo. cant wait to see him in the next 69 months.
love you jarenko, i wonder does he ever read these. and i wonder if he ever saw the long paragraph i send him long ago thanking him for his hatred and taunting him.
i will still continue to spread hope to despise him. this made me day