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Progress takes over feels

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... I just am feeling a void in my soul as of now. There is.. no happiness nor satisfaction in today’s.. successes. I hate myself. And I hate this so much.

As stated in the previous entry, I had a certain plan for the night.. which should’ve been capping Mitran then doing roulettes and reclears of E9~12 on Enesha.
Yoonie couldn’t login due to migraine, so we justly decided to wait to do reclears so she could join us as well.
I knew Tofu wanted/had to prog E9S with his static and I figured Adore would’ve been at progging E12S with randos, so I started doing roulettes on Mitran.

Frontline tonight has been a great experience: we got a crushing victory and I could play a very important role. The team managed to follow my lead and we even won with a great 400 points advantage over a team with 5 BH 5 players while we only had one (not me though, I was a BH 4 in the end and BH 3 for most of the battle). It’s been a wholesome roulette. Although I didn’t get commendations... But that’s fine, almost no one give them in PvP anyway unless they’re really into it.
On the other hand, I hit Alliance Roulette and got the Void Ark, smooth and nice run with just a couple random casualties and received 5 commendations in the end... I guess players like to get cards.
I hit LV69 AST and decided not to do anything else because I wanted this week’s Wondrous Tails to get that free level for it, so I switched to Enesha once again around 10 PM. A pretty late hour for starting roulettes, I thought, but I could fit them.

As soon as I logged in, I noticed Tofu venting because apparently one or two DPS of the static screwed Summon or something? I don’t really know what was going on, since I hopped in late in the Linkshell’s conversation.
I do the Pixies’ Quests while waiting for Trials to pop, and I notice Tofu and Adore telling me we’d be doing Castrum Marinum (Extreme) tonight. Both of them cleared (and farmed?) it already, so they clearly wanted to help me out with my clear. I didn’t want to hinder them, but apparently Tofu wanted to smash things to vent out and Adore just probably didn’t find any prog parties so he decided to help me instead. I was kinda nervous to do it with them, knowing I still had to practice on Tertius Terminus Est and I warned them I’d be sucky, but they gave no shits.
Aye, that’s my boys alright.

Tofu then set up the Party Finder... But I felt really bad at reading “clear for a friend” as description. I only hoped no one judged me bad for that, so I decided to stay silent during the whole time because I didn’t want to give out the idea of being a carried noob, and decided just to do my job.

... What a messfest the Party has been, even in the first phase. Adore had to get used to AST again, the DRK and the MNK kept dying altogether with Tofu and the NIN I decided to Dragon Sight kept randomly go between left and right of the boss, often forcing me to move to the other side of the planet to land my positionals while assuring them the damage boost. Not to mention they used Doton pre-pull (Emerald Weapon can’t move, so it’s totally wasted) and even a moment before the Black Wolf Image appeared... Maybe because they had full Mudra and had to consume them somehow? I don’t know, but the tank constantly pulling the Black Wolf out of Doton was triggering to say the least. In hindsight, I should’ve tethered the MCH indeed. That was a good player.

Fortunately, we reached phase 2 at third try (or was it second? I don’t recall), and we managed to clear the Duty on our.. sixth, I think? try. Although it was the closest call any person could’ve asked for: we destroyed it at the same time the Fully-Optimized Ultima finished the animation.


UPSIDES
+ A clear’s a clear
+ I’ve got the NIN’s weapon (I suppose the NIN already had it) and the Orchestrion Roll from Chest
+ I finally could manage to figure out the pattern for the first TTE and managed to always avoid the AoEs!


DOWNSIDES
- I’m too slow at activating Arm’s Length during the upper split + TTE attack. I ended up dying while going into the safe spot because of the knockback. I wanted to pop it as late as possible in order to avoid the risk of it deactivating exactly when I needed it, but I got the opposite result instead. I think I should activate as soon as the second or third set drops, instead of when the knockback arrows appear
- I may be unlucky or something, but the “rare” pattern Annabel mentioned popped three times out of six and I punctually kept exploding because I got into the center too fast
- I feel this completion is totally undeserved and I feel shit for not having been able to fully grasp the second and third TTE without shitting in the process
- I scored a fucking 9 parse


I should be happy about being able to finally complete the Duty... But I’m not. Not a bit. Not at all. I just can’t. I didn’t deserve it. I died twice during the last pull because of the above points, and I deserved to stay in the flames until I could finally get my hand on the entirety of the fight, instead of barely completing it. I’m not satisfied with this shitty result, and I for sure am ashamed of such fucking low parse.
I didn’t want to feel a carried noob, but in the end that’s all someone could tell by looking at the result.
... Fuck. I’m not joining farming Parties like this. I simply won’t. I still have things to work on, the most important being the second and third TTE, then optimizing my burst for Black Wolf and, lastly, how to manage my buffs and windows, since I noticed the fight isn’t exactly DRG-friendly because of the downtimes and the Wolf’s transitions.

After the clear I also got crippling depression because of a Castrum Meridianum run with a wannabe tank with almost half my HP as SCH that kept monopulling and the other tank (whose was more than fine on equipment)
not pulling at all, not to mention my co-healer and one of the DPS having almost a third of my HP, resulting in an extremely slow push until I decided to tank myself, already sad for the previous experience, writing “... Isn’t the time a little too late for taking this slow? T-T” as well, probably looking like an hardcore asshole to them, since I literally carried the team and got no commendations in the end... Fair enough I suppose...

To make things just worse, I missed literally a spit to get SCH/SMN to 80, Nd I noticed NR roulette needed a DPS, so I decided to queue as SMN. I’ve almost never used it because of SCH, so I’m not exactly familiar on how it works at higher levels, but I still hoped for Alexander. I can still manage to use it decently at that level range.
... O4 popped. I felt shit and immediately asked for forgiveness in chat for my incoming shitty DPSing. ... Unexpectedly, the DNC (another Trade Mentor) partnered me instead of the DRG or the BRD. That made sense on the paper, actually, since SMN should be stronger than both of them, aDPS-speaking. But I told them to feel free to switch partner whenever they wanted. Surprisingly, they said “Nah, it’s fine”, and we stood partnered.
I indeed sucked: I summoned Bahamut only once, I often had to refresh DoTs not via Tri-Disaster, I had no idea how Enkindle Bahamut worked, I didn’t know how Dreadwyrm Trance worked with the Ætherflow, I entered DWT with Tri-Disaster not on cooldown... I seriously felt bad. I was almost going to cry for my incompetence. Regardless, and I have no idea how it was even possible, I’ve constantly been top DPS. I wonder how much the DRG had to screw up not to being able to topple a freestyling SMN...
After that roulette, I reached LV80 on SCH/SMN, and immediately ran away in shame.. not before getting a commendation though. I wonder if that was the DNC’s...?

Anyroad, I feel really bad, as mentioned. And I should be sleeping already, too...
... I will (hopefully) do reclears tomorrow and start on working on my Exarchic set of Fending while getting into more phase 2 practice Parties for Emerald EX. And now that SCH/SMN is LV80 I wish to fully grasp not only SCH’s toolkit as I did so far, but SMN especially.
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Kupo Warkson

Siren [Aether]

Consider yourself lucky that you had a clear party stick around for 5 or 6 wipes. You're a Dragoon so everybody was probably expecting you to floor tank anyways. I mean, somebody's gotta do it.

As for the parse, say it's golf rules so lowest number wins?

Annabel Ashcroft

Faerie [Aether]

"I may be unlucky or something, but the “rare” pattern Annabel mentioned popped three times out of six and I punctually kept exploding because I got into the center too fast"

I am totally amazed at this. I can literally count on 1 hand after all the practice and 25 clears on this on how many times I have seen that pattern.

And don't feel bad about being 'carried' My first clear on this I was soooo carried. But eventually I learned it well enough to do swords perfectly and not die at all.

Enesha Melwalx

Zodiark [Light]

Yeah... Everyone has to start somewhere I suppose... Perhaps I’m just too ambitious or pretentious or I should tone down my expectations a bit as I’ve been told once...
I appreciated the consolations, though, thank you very much. 🙂
I legit laughed at Kupo’s statements. 😂

As for the pattern, Tofu sent me a picture that pictured 4 possibilities, but I’m starting to think there are more than expected, because none of them represented the one I faced... I should keep an eye on next attempts!

Kupo Warkson

Siren [Aether]

You laughed? So loldrg jokes are still funny? That's good to hear, I haven't played in a year or two so I wasn't sure if they were still acceptable.
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