So, I ended up inadvertently venting to someone, but I think they told and now everyone knows. People probably think I'm a dramatic person, but I swear I'm not trying to be. Anyway, point is now I feel super awkward about it. I just wish they hadn't said anything to the group because now they're being different towards me and I feel weird about it. God this is so stupid. I asked about it, but they just ignored me. I really hate the tendency of people to just ignore things that make them uncomfortable in this game. I should have never said anything alasdjflasdjf shit
. I have, like bungled this whole thing and misrepresented myself and that shit drives me crazy. That is something I have got to get over, especially online, like I get so bothered by people having the wrong idea about me, I wish I didn't do that! What I REALLY need to do is get back on my fitness/ meditation routine and leave this stupid game alone lol.
There has also been some irl things happening in my family that are probably influencing my thoughts as well. One of my sisters was sexually assaulted and its a whole thing that has been occupying my family's life for about 2 weeks now. I'm a sponge emotionally, so I've been soaking up a lot of like psychic information that is negatively impacting me. I feel like by saying something like that I sound as if I'm complaining about how her situation is affecting me, but I don't mean it like that. I'm just saying this is what happened and, yes, its affecting me. Idk I'm just in a really weird headspace and on top of that I've been out of an important medication for about a week and its also influenced my mood since its a sorta mood stabilizer.
As per usual here is my disclaimer, or a variant of it anyway: this is my space to vent, however stupid it may sound to whomever is reading. As such it is going to sound more dramatic than it is probably, but I treat online spaces where I am able to blog as a sort of diary, so by reading this you are privy to my thoughts, so don't disrespect that and just treat it as it is.
Feel free to vent here and sorry for what happened to your sister. When it comes to external negative energy, you have to try your best to keep yourself from absorbing said energy.
Most people in this game you have to walk on egg shells with. Pick and choose what you want to say, that sort of thing.
