Of course [...] we initially believed that Stilfs was our salvation, that his conditions were the ideal conditions for us, and when we saw and understood that Stilfs was not our salvation, that his conditions were not and never could be the ideal conditions for us, that to the contrary, it spelled our annihilation, we began hoping that ████, who by then was already completely paralysed, would die. But she has not died; who knows when she will die? And now that all three of us are feebleness incarnate, there would no longer even be any point in abandoning her. It is all a question of time and this question no longer terrifies us, because we know we have reached the end and that life no longer has any meaning for us.