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Dear diary,

Today was an interesting day, full of unusual happenings.

After last night, when I realized I'd actually forgotten that I owed the Scions of the Seventh Dawn a reply-- throwing myself wholeheartedly into my alchemy because it was easier than making such a tough decision-- I finally got my butt on a chocobo and made the trip back out to see them.

I decided to join after all. My career, the way I survive in this world, is to get along doing the best jobs I can get hired for. If I turn that down, I won't be able to keep living the way I'm going. And this is a really special job, after all. It's elite, there are wonderful benefits, and I'll be able to keep making it in the big city as a thaumaturge after all.

After I spoke with the Scions, Kiht and Sahraa invited me out to the hot springs at Camp Bronze Lake-- well, okay, I sort of invited myself along, but it seemed to work out fine. We talked a lot about our jobs and a little about our past, and of course we discussed our love lives! Which isn't going so exciting for me lately, but (something is scribbled out) I forgot that other people might be peeking in my diary. Uhm, someone I know has a crush on someone, and she's such a blushy little kitten about it that she probably doesn't want anyone to know, which is really cute.

Also, a bunch of guys whistled at us. Stupid men. As if we were there for their benefit rather than our own.

Another thing I realized while talking with my friends is how much I'm worried about having to go home. For the longest time, they let me get away without having kittens because I was so busy and skilled as a priestess of our tribe, but one of the reasons I came out to get this extra training was because of the way some people were making noises that I really might be assigned to have some kittens soon no matter how much I said I needed the lead time. And I don't mind having kittens eventually; it's just that I wanted to do this job more fully first. Once I have kittens hanging off my skirts, I really won't be able to get out and take this amazing training like I am with the guild now. There aren't any resources left at home to teach me further, and I really want to learn from the experts while I still can. If I can't keep making it as a thaumaturge, if I do have to go home, I probably won't be able to ever advance much more than I am now. And I'm just not ready for that to happen yet. I know I can do more; I need to do more, before I leave the city. So I can't risk having to go home. I have to take the best jobs I can and keep working hard on it.